I’ve been avoiding this post because I feel like I have to explain why I’ve been gone for a while. Truth is I put this blog on the back burner for a long time even though this is something that really excites me. Every year when I make a list of things I’d like to accomplish in the new year, this blog is one of the first things I write down.
I am constantly battling the evil and negative thoughts in my head. They antagonize me and then I’m not motivated to do anything. This is a problem I’ve faced my whole entire life.
I made a mistake at work a couple weeks ago and today I finally asked my boss for help. Thankfully, she is super understanding and helped immediately. I explained to her that whenever I make a mistake, it makes me feel like the world around me is falling apart and I’m literally the reason for everyones misery.
I know I’m not, but in the moment knowing doesn’t make a difference.
Honestly I didn’t mean to be such a Debbie Downer, but I just came out of what was the worst year of my life and this is the first time I’ve felt in control over my head more than ever before.
The negative thoughts are still here and life isn’t perfect, but I’m content. I feel relaxed. I really hope with this new found self-assurance, I can finally do what I’ve been trying to do for the past couple of years with this blog!
As far as the Euphoria thing, I keep seeing Tik-Toks of Lexi being inspired and typing away on her laptop. I’m just like her, except I’m nothing like her and Euphoria sucks. Hope that doesn’t offend anyone!
Alright friends, it’s late and I’m really sleepy! Thanks for reading! I hope everyone has a good night!
~till next time!