It’s been a while, almost too long and you’re probably wondering what the fuck is going on? Okay, I can definitely fill you in, but I believe we need to start at the beginning, for all intents and purposes, of storytelling.
About twenty nine years ago, in the jungles of Asia a star was born.. kidding. I was born in the Holy Cross Hospital in Dhaka, Bangladesh and we’re not going to go that far back.
We’re going back to where it all started. We’re going back to a time where I completely lost myself. We’re going back to 2013 when I met him. Yes. This story of self discovery starts with a boy. It always starts with a fucking boy.
His name was Dakota and he had me at his music taste. You see friends, one thing you should know about me is how much I love music. I love music!! I’ve never had a lot of friends growing up, but I had music. My mom was a single parent and she was always working. Music raised me.
I met my music soulmate. Even to this day, I’ve never met anyone who I connected that closely with when it comes to music. He became my everything.
Things didn’t work out between him and I and I’m not going to go into details. It’s not important either because this isn’t his story or our story. This is my story. Besides, why would you want to know more details about a guy who asked for the price of every drink I ordered after I would put in the order. Listen, being frugal is cool. I call myself a baller on a budget; however, that stressed me out to the point where I paid for the entire date.
Young Shamaila is a silly bitch. I know. I was her and I think this is where I’ll stop for today.
We have so much to go over and I’m so excited to let you in. I’m so fucking exhausted of not being true to myself. It took Covid-19 for me to realize that I am not happy with the person I’ve become, but I’ve made a lot of changes. Things are a lot different now and while we’re still in a pandemic, this is the most living I’ve done in my entire life.
Thank you so much for joining me! You seriously have no idea how excited I am to do this.
~till next time
P.S: My unemployment may be temporary, but my sandals with socks swag is eternal.