How the fuck am I sitting here right now typing this? I can’t believe I’ll be turning twenty-nine in a couple of hours. This birthday is a weird one for me. I still feel like I’m sixteen sometimes (probably because I claim to be a VSCO girl and spend my free time on TikTok). But seriously, twenty-nine came fast. Feels like I was in college yesterday getting in trouble for the stupidest shit.
Oh, what I’d do to be young again. For real, I’m not ready to let go of my youth. People tell me all the time that I’m still young blah blah blah, and I know I’m not old but I’m also not twenty-three years old either.
So I made a vow to myself- I’m going to live twenty-nine to the fullest as cliche as that may sound. I’m going to follow my heart and conquer all of my dreams. The S in Shamaila stands for SHINE and nothing will get in my way.
I’ve actually already kind of started. I put in a two weeks notice for the company I’ve been working at for the past three years. I love the company I work for, but it just felt like it’s finally time to move on and try something new.
My new office will be in D.C!!
So, back story: when I was in the first grade, while kids were outside playing during recess, I would be inside playing by myself and pretending to be a secretary for big firm. I always dreamed of being a grown up, working in the city, and having a career.
I can’t believe it. I’ll finally be a D.C. yuppie, BUT an ACTUAL D.C. YUPPIE (not a suburbs of D.C. yuppie). I’ve always wanted to work in the big-bad-city and finally an opportunity has presented itself. The six year old in me is squealing.
This birthday is different. I can’t believe how much time has passed and I can’t believe I haven’t done a whole lot, except take pictures of myself crying. Seriously though, I feel like the most I’ve accomplished thus far is making a playlist on Spotify and it having 258 followers (said playlist).
I’m not putting myself down. I’m just saying I’ve truly hindered myself. I’m an outgoing and creative individual. I don’t know where this sudden boost of confidence came from but I’m running with it and hopefully this fire doesn’t run out because I’m having so much fun.
I can’t wait to create and show you guys what goes on inside my noggin (especially more crying videos).
Cheers to my twenties almost coming to an end! Cheers to more crying videos.
Thanks so much for reading my word vomit. I love you all so much!!
~till next time!