The *HONEST* Fucking Truth

Hi friends,

I’m not blogging as much as I like. Actually, I’m not doing a lot of things I like. It’s been a rough past couple of years. A lot has happened since I started this blog. The person I was when I started this back in 2015 and the girl I am now.. completely different bitches. This blog started because I was angry. I wasn’t where I thought I should be in life and it made me very sad. I felt like I lost complete control over everything. I thought this blog could be my outlet, my freedom, a place where I can be myself but how can I be myself, if I didn’t know who I was anymore.

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I stopped dressing nice. I stopped cleaning my room. I stopped listening to music. I stopped watching movies.I stopped reading books. I stopped filming. I stopped crafting. I stopped working out. I stopped talking to people. I stopped doing everything I love.

That passion, the fuel, that fire, it was gone.

A lot of my friends might find this a little shocking because if you meet me in person, I’m the perkiest person you’ll ever meet. It’s been a facade the past couple of years -sunshine and butterflies on the outside, Sleepy Hollow darkness on the inside.

I’ve spent too much time being sad over things that I can’t change. I’m twenty-seven right IMG_0538now and while people keep telling me that I’m young- I feel old as fuck. I wasted so much time being sad. Time is something you’ll never get back. Enough is enough. I am finally ready to put everything in the past and move on with my life.

I’ve struggled for so long by myself. I’m sorry to anyone I’ve hurt along the way to my recovery. It was never intentional nor was it personal. Please accept my apology. Also, the people who’ve been there for me through thick and thin- thank you so very much.

So okay- what about this blog? You know, I actually don’t know and I’m kind of okay with it, but I hope you join me for whatever adventure it turns into. I’m no longer that sad, repressed, angry brown girl with a playlist.

I’m EXCITED!

~till next time

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